Do I not have rights over my life?
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Do I not have rights over my life?
Friday, December 25, 2009
I found a very funny truth (in fact, many) when we finished the conversation.
Their first problem is that it is a 'Love Affair'. They hate the word love BIG TIME. Their next problem is if she is of the same caste or religion. They dont care even if the guy/gal is good-for-nothin.
Next problem is 'family-support'. And by the word, they just mean that they need all their relatives to come for the marriage. They give lot of suggestions. They vanish after the D-Day. They are those who spend lakhs and lakhs of money for a marriage and then regret spending it.
Their next problem is 'public'. What would they say? Public - assholes. They are just interested to make problems. Oops..I'm sorry. I dint mean every one of them but very few like ***** :P
I have only one question. "Can you promise me that I would be happy for the rest of my life if I marry a gal you suggest? "
I happened to get a comment from Urvashi. So Urvashiii... here I'm. :D
Yet again I heard that my so-called-friends read my blog and I suspect if they missed my psycho-blog-posts. I think my blogs are meaningful, at least for me and some of them who read mine. And those who feel I'm a psycho-fuckin-looser, please, you would really need a mirror.
The above text was meant to someone who is so special, respectful and he who thinks he knows everything and actually knows nothing. Why don't you go check the polio vaccination schedule?
So, today was a very important day in my life. I came home for a reason and I think I'm 90% successful. Rest 10%...hmmm...yes i can get it done over time. :D Let it remain a secret till then. Need your prayers BTW.
I'm expected to take a Tata Indicom Photon+ very soon which would mean you can expect my frequent visits to read blogs and also to write some psycho-blogs :P
Sunday, December 13, 2009
I went to the barber shop and asked them to cut it short, too very short. They gave me a strange look. i dint bother. i just somehow wanted to get rid of my hair. I got surprised seeing myself in the mirror. I was like who-is-this? khe khe khe...
I went to the photo studio to take my passport size foto, for i gotto submit tat during the time of joining. I went there and ordered for 20 copies. They asked me to look at the foto n check if wat i asked them to print is right or wrong. I pointed to the file BX-44 and asked them to take prints of 'that'.
'Who is this?' the keeper asked me.
i gave him a strange look. 'Its me' i said. hmmm... embarrassing situation.
Same thing happened again. i went to the company to join there. i went there and they gave me the forms that must be filled on the DOJ. They asked me my photo copies and i gave them too. After sometime, senior HR executive called me up to his cabin and asked me my DOB, father's name mother's name, PAN card number and all those to check if i'm the real ME. khe khe khe.. it took me sometime to make them believe that it was really ME. :((
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
I'm happy that i can come home every week.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Everyone is good here i guess. This time it was slightly different from my other visit. Cuz this time i was out of my home most f the time. Usually i don go out of my home once i reach here for personal reasons. No friends ask me also. I dont care about that. neither do they :( khe khe khe...But i'm happy to hear that they read my blog :D
This time also i had a fight with my parents sayin abt love marriage and arranged marriage. Its an on-goin fight. Hmmm i wil keep fighting till i succeed :D
Okay... So I'm using my friends net connection. He can kick me out any moment. So let me stop here. Sorry for this post. I mean a good-for-nothin post. sorry... :D
Friday, December 4, 2009
So here I'm. The most awaited day this was, since i joined the company. The Last Working Day! khe khe khe...I cant type another blog sitting in this office. From 10th, new office, new place and new friends.
I got nothin to tell you in person. But i think i will miss you people. Yes, hopefully very few of them. My Project Manager and people who sit next to me. I would keep in touch with them for sure. I'm happy but sad also on the other side of my brain :)
i dont wanna type any longer. These people will block my ID as soon as I finish this email. So I'm in a hurry. I don wanna take last minute risks :D n yea You would also prefer me to stop flattering.
I will see you all. Love you...
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Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Maybe I'm too possessive or maybe I'm very badly in love with her. Whatever! I cant get over it.
i look around. Everyone is smiling. They at least have reasons to be happy. At least for the time being. But why God is doing this to me? Is he testing me? Why the fuck he isnt testing others?
Everyone is happy...except me.
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Friday, November 27, 2009
I wanted to release from project. My managers dint approve. I had to submit my resignation. They made lot of problems. They asked me to stay and serve the notice period. Meanwhile, My parents told me its a very bad time for me according to astrology.
Almost the same time, one of my friend got selected in the same company where i got selected. I felt happy for it. At least i got company. But for my confusion, I got an offer from another company but with a higher pay. I felt happier.
My managers was not releasing me from the project at all. They made lot of problems and they said they can relieve me only on Dec 7th. I told this to the companies which offered me job. They luckily were fine. My parents called me in between and said after consulting the astrologer that till Dec 7th its really very bad time for me. I was confused then. But that isnt the purpose of this post.
1 month back -
My friend which i mentioned earlier also got an offer from the same company again. Now, i was also confused to go where. 1st company is in a place near to my native place, just 4hrs away. 2nd company is in Chennai itself. But i decided to stay back in Chennai cuz now my 'company' is here for my friend cuz he rejected the 1st company. :(
I informed the 1st company that I received another offer from another company and they are paying me more. So i would more likely join them if you wouldnt re-consider my pay structure. 1st company is in great danger now. They had scheduled the project and assignments and all those shits. They called me and asked for my expectation. As always, my expectations were too much for them but they assured they would provide the same offer 2nd company offered. And now i got a better offer and a better place also.
See how chaotic life is. But still i can see an order, the way things happened for a good cause.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Its been 6 years since we met. I still remember the first day i saw you. In that blue dress, you were looking like an angel. When i heard that you loved someone, i was jealous. I dint mean to say that it was love at first sight...but after many 'talks'. How many times have we met in these 6 years? 5 or 6 or max 10?
I dont know when did i start loving you. All i need in my life is you. I dont need something better or something worse. This is the only thing i pray to God. If you check my other blog, most of the posts are meant for you. I wanted you to read it, words from my heart.
I know its not gonna happen cuz we are from different religion. But is that my problem? Parents need someone who can take care of their daughter. Yes, they look for all kinda things which exist no where but only in Kerala. 40 years. I cant think of living with some one i rarely know. I dont wanna live with some girl. Its you i need. Not just any girl.
I'm offering 40 years of happiness and more if i live longer. I wont let you stay in a world where I'm not there. I'm sure we are gonna die together too. I wont leave you alone. No one has ever loved you the way i did. No one is loving you the way i do and no one will ever love you the way i will. I'm asking for a life.
Will you marry me?
PS: Straight from heart. The words may not be perfect. But hope you can understand what i meant. I'm even ready to repeat it till my last breath...
PPS: 101th post. New beginning. New post. New life. New love letter.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
I was surprised to see a BMW M Series car parked in our car parking facility in our office. I dont have words to explain it. It was right beside my Honda Civic. Civic was much like a goat pleading for its life in front of a lion. OMG! I wanted to take a picture of it and put it here but by the time i took my mobile, i saw some ppl coming. I dint wanna take a risk. But the car was awesome. BMW has always been my Dream-Car. I always wanted to buy one and i strongly believe I will make enough money to get a BMW at the age of 40. I got 15 years to make 50 Lakhs. I will make it.
There were around 25 cars in our car parking facility. Even if one had owned all those, he can never feel proud of the one who owned a BMW. WoW! What-a-Car!
Harry Callahan: Well, when an adult male is chasing a female with intent to commit rape, I shoot the bastard. That's my policy.
The Mayor: Intent? How did you establish that?
Harry Callahan: When a naked man is chasing a woman through an alley with a butcher's knife and a hard-on, I figure he isn't out collecting for the Red Cross!
[walks out of the room]
The Mayor: He's got a point.
PS: I was wondering what would I possibly write, for this is my 100th post. I recently happened to see a movie - Dirty Harry! And the above conversation is from that movie. I felt this is worth posting it here. My 100th post! :D Let me enjoy it, making you laugh a bit...
Monday, November 23, 2009
"Hey, dont you know? Your place got shifted to there" my friend said pointing to a computer which was open to anyone who goes to the rest-room.
Even i had no idea of shifting the place and no one told me also about this. I was already late for the meeting. I spent 5 minutes to get my things shifted to the new place.
New place sucks! This is not at all good. All my friends are with their friends and I'm the only one to stay with a stranger. And the funny thing is I'm sitting next to an IT Admin guy. So that would mean that i CAN NOT take orkut illegally. That was my only time pass and ofcoz blogging. Even I'm not supposed to open Mozilla. The greatest concern is anyone can see my PC.
To make the things worse, employees from the other facility also shifted to here. And now when i go to the cafeteria, i feel it no different from a local railway station. People everywhere :(
i miss my old place.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
I came near the window to hold your hands and i did. i wanted to run along when the train started. i wanted to run the whole way. i craned my neck to have a glimpse. i cried thinkin i cant see you again when i saw the train melted into the darkness. But then i noticed.
I can see you when i close my eyes.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
I dont mind paying my whole salary as my telephone bill when i'm talkin to you, owner of the sweetest voice on the planet.
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Thursday, November 19, 2009
He came back home to see his wife.
He had gone for counseling.
'Mentally ill' his friends said.
He always doubts his wife..
'He is fine now' she thought
They came to bed, early
and then he heard it
somebody is outside the room,
He peeped out...glancing at his wife...in disbelief...
PS: I got this 'theme' from a movie :D
After all, you cant stop me from thinking about it.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
It is small, really small and the Ad said it's people's car. Wow! Perfect! i was so happy until i heard the price. You wouldnt believe just like i did. I can buy a Honda-Civic if i have that much :|
Its 15 Lakhs! (Please dont blame me if its not true)
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I have told this many times. Maybe you got bored reading the same thing again and again. i tried to writing the same thing but in a different way. Yet, you dint understand. If i were to write a blog whenever i think about you, i would just be typing it over and over having no time to post it cuz i never stop thinking about you. i never stop dreaming about you...
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Friday, November 13, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
i feel, i'm walking carrying a 50KG weight on my neck, unfortunately thats my head n i cant drop it. However i would consider rewarding the person who can cut my head off my neck. I feel something is being pumped directly to my head and i can feel the 'push'. I cant turn my head cuz i feel i will fall cuz of the weight.
Heart is inside my stomach. i can feel the heartbeat when i rub my hands over my tummy (especially belly-button). i think it will burst, though it wont show any signs of a 'high-pressure-balloon'. I can hardly type cuz its too cold in here. Every companies swtich off the AC for cost-cutting but my company does the opposite. FUCK THIS AC! :\
I got lots of work for 2moro n i dont think i can come to offis. But i gotta try. Do you have a cork? Please...i wanna cork my fuckin (read 'running') nose.
That's it! I'm fucked! Please pray for me! :)
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Sunday, November 8, 2009
The subject line read 'Guess Who?'.
She eagerly opened the email to see the picture of a very handsome guy. She found the pic so familiar though she couldn't identify.
YES! i got an idea! she thought
'Guess who?' she typed n searched in Google.
PS: This is a real story, happened in my office. khe khe khe...
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Friday, November 6, 2009
i wanted to get relieved from my company ASAP. i talked to my managers and they simply said it is NOT possible. i was out of my mind those days. At last, they informed my last working day would be Dec 07 2009! My parents were worried too for the tension i was suffering. I dint wanna tell my parents a specific date as such cuz Dec 07 2009 was a tentative one.
My parents do believe in God and so they do believe in Horoscope / Star also. They took my horoscope to an astrologer. They might have said something. One day at night, Dad called me and told this to me. He said till Dec 7th i'm having a very bad time. i was like - WHAT?!' i told dad tat dec 7th will be my last working day.
i dono how to express my surprise in words. i dono if the piece of paper can be believed or not, but i was stunned. I'm not here to say that i became a strong believer of horoscope n i want you people also to believe it. I'm writing this post cuz i'm frightened. Whateva happened or whateva tats gonna happen (at least till Dec 7th) in my life is 80% accurate as written in tat paper.
The reason i'm panicking is, it is again written in my horoscope that i would (most likely) die at the age of 28 n if i survive that, i would live 79 years! I'm 25 now n i don mind dying at 28 rather than living till 79. khe khe khe... :P
PS: That wasnt funny. I started takin it seriously n i dono..if i need to believe it or not! :O
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Thursday, November 5, 2009
It was kinda-heavily raining in some parts of Chennai for the past two days. Unfortunately, i stay in one of those 'some parts'.
Luck plays, as it always does, a very strange game with me. everyday morning before i start to offis, i take my umbrella assuming it would definitely rain. But it always doesn't rain when i take my umbrella.
Yesterday i dint take my umbrella for the climate was pleasant. At night, i was on the way back home from offis and i was carryin my offer-letter also. Suddenly it started raining and i panicked cuz i dint wanna see my offer-letter drenched. i got inside a shop. i somehow wanted to escape the rain. my two hands were engaged too. i started searchin for 'tools' which would help me n luckily i remembered my hanky. i sighed with relief. i took my hanky out and with great relief carefully covered my mobile and started walking in the rain. khe khe khe... :D
i dint care about my offer letter or anything for that matter. i always used to wonder why people are like this. i always valued wat i had in my hand or pocket or in my bag than myself. i dint care of 'me' gettin drenched but my mobile. This is not the first time. Even i hav noticed myself pulling up my sleeves when i go to a hotel to hav food. i dont bother my hands getting dirt than my shirt. Are all people like this or just me? i still wonder...
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
'i need divorce' she said
'But why?' he said
'You doubt me as if i hav an affair with my best frnd.'
'i did, but not now. he is a very good person.'
later, she msged her friend
'Hey, lucky we! he has got no doubts on us...mwaah!'
PS: His wife is good or bad? What you think? ;)
You can release me only if so-called-clients release me? Who are these clients? My Father? My Mother? Fuck You!
Committing to this fucking project doesnt mean that i shud work in this for the rest of my life. i have my own life to live on. its MY life. i'll decide whether to work or not. What if clients dint release me? I'll have to work here? HERE? FUCK! They just need to stupid resource to get their work done! They dont need ANOOP! They jus need a resource!
i'm done. i jus wanna get the hell outa here. U dont give a salary hike or a designation hike but you want me to fuckin work? FUCK YOU!
You are on the verge of ruining my life! I'm just waiting for my relieving letter and you wont forget that day!
Monday, November 2, 2009
The scream pierced her ears.
What's happening? she thought
In the other room she saw her husband dead.
Frightened, she began to search the cupborad for the gun. It was missing.
Seeing a figure, running towards her, she shudderred.
'Mummyyyy, I KILLED HIM!' she screamed, hugging her mom tight.
PS: I recently read an article featuring a psychopath-father molesting his own daughter. This post is dedicated to that f*cking-psycho-father.
i was stunned by the astonishing view from the plane. i almost saw the whole of Cochin, i must say. this was the first time i was on a flight on a day-time. i was always looking thru the window n i started waving my hands lookin thru the window. The girl who was sitting beside me was surprised. She asked me y was i waving my hands. i dint reply. i jus smiled.
i still remember, when i was a kid, i used to hide under my cot when i hear the sound of an air-craft. i felt it is somethin so dangerous n i neva used to come out. One day my mom asked me not to be frightened of the heavy sound and she took me to the play-ground nearby. She looked up at the sky and showed me the small plane among the clouds.
She told me the plane is making such noise to make you wave him good-bye. There are people on the plane and they are waving at us. Then she asked me to wave at the plane whenever i saw one for someone inside the plane is always waiting for my 'bye's. It made me so happy n from then i became courage, courage enough to wave good-bye :P
I'm 25 years old. i'm not ashamed to say that i still wave my hands when i see aeroplanes or if i'm inside the aircraft. i always did and i always will.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
girl: i dont like you talkin to her
me: i know you are possessive about me but i cant do wat u say...
girl: you neva gave value for my words, for wat i say
me: see, i cant stop friendship with her just cuz i love u. she is my best frnd. i just cant stop frndship with her. she is all i have.
girl: oh..she is ALL you have? Oh my!
me: i dint mean it literally...Look, i met her b4 i met you n i cant stop anythin for you. my last word. No more talks on this.
PS: Now i understand what made her say like tat, wat was she goin thru. I understood only when i came across a similar situation like this. But this time i was arguing with her askin not to talk to her frnd. i always think about me. Only ME! i feel sorry now.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Aringarosa shook his head, looking sad as they prepared to wheel him away. "Silas... if you have learned nothing from me, please... learn this." He took Silas's hand and gave it a firm squeeze. "Forgiveness is God's greatest gift."
PS: You all might know that this is a passage from Dan Brown's 'The Da Vinci Code'. i liked this very much n so i wanted to share. Thats a message, for all of us!
Hey, you shouldn’t stay here. You must leave soon. Take the money and leave.” said the man pointing to the bag on the table.
Police is everywhere. I need to leave this place. Very soon!. the killer thought
The man gripped on the revolver in his pocket when the killer moved to grab the bag…
PS: This is my 4th 55F story. i dono if i'm improving or worsening my writing skills.. :D Let me know :)
Sunday, October 25, 2009
I read a very good blog n 'HE' has a very good reputation when it comes to bloggin. He started bloggin 3 years back n he had only less than 25 followers. At the same time, i came across another blog n 'SHE' started bloogin a few months back. Early this year to be little specific. Her 'topics' were 'OK'. Neither good nor bad n she had less than 50 posts in total. BUT, she had more than 70 followers.
Another funny fact is, most of them were 'Guys'! khe khe khe... Guys do follow 'ONLY' gals' blog? Why is it so? Only Gals do write good blogs? Duh!
Why Guys only follow gals? Even when it comes to blog? i can think of obvious reasons when it comes to other topics...khe khe khe... Hey gals out there - you are lucky! Your blogs get more popular than a guy's.
PS: You can read the first part here, on my other blog.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
I had a friend, Ritesh, who used to stay with his uncle then. His uncle was a drunkard. There was no time we could see him on two-legs. khe khe khe...
On a weekend, we wanted to call Ritesh at night and dialed his number. Unfortunately he was not available but his uncle answered the phone. for obvious reason, he was 'drunk'!
'HAALLLOOO' Uncle shouted!
'Hello, Can i talk to Ritesh' my friend said, havin no choice
'Aaraa?' he said in Malayalam. ('Aara' means 'Who')
'Njan Happy-ya' he said. (I'm Happy)
'Ritesh evide illaa. pinne vilikkuu..okaaayy' he cut the call having said that. (Ritesh is not here. Call later)
The next day morning, luckily when the uncle was on his 'two legs', he vaguely remembered somebody had called yesterday.
'Ritesh, ninakku ariyuo?' he mumbled. (You know what?)
'Innale aaro enne vilichu. Enittu parayuva avan Happy aanennu. hehehe... athinu avan happy anengil njan enthu venam?' he laughed out loud! (Yesterday someone phoned me n said he is happy. what should i do if he is happy?)
khe khe khe...
Hearing that Ritesh too couldn't stop his laughter. His uncle never knew his friend's 'name' was 'Happy'.